Dressed in the Dark
Today must’ve been one of those “I-dressed-in-the-dark” days, or maybe it’s just my utterly exhausted face. I walked up to the MPesa shop to withdraw Ksh 20,000. The guy finishes the transaction and THEN asks for my ID. “Na si ungesema before?” I snapped, fishing out a softcopy to send. Meanwhile, the lady behind me finishes the same transaction without anyone asking for her ID. Seriously, what’s this now?
Earlier, I was at the mini-mart, minding my own business when a random guy looks at me and says, “Don’t think too much, it will be okay.” I literally turned around to check if he was talking to me. Who even said I was thinking too much? Am I that obvious? Clearly, I must be exuding some heavy distracted vibes.
Now, I’m feeling desperate to see what my face looks like—but my kids broke the only mirror in the house during playtime. Maybe that’s a blessing in disguise. No need to confirm what I probably already suspect. But you know what, I can’t stop here. I need to remember my true source of strength and run to Him in prayer.
Prayer:
“Lord, I come before You today, asking that You turn Your countenance upon me (Numbers 6:24-26). Help me to exude Your goodness and strength, that I may reflect Your peace, joy, and love wherever I go. Your Word says that those who wait upon You will renew their strength, they will mount up with wings like eagles (Isaiah 40:31). I need Your strength, Father, and I ask that I may attract favor from both You and those around me. Guide my steps and my thoughts so that I am not weighed down by the distractions of life but can walk in Your grace and confidence. I declare that I will find favor with God and man, just as Jesus did (Luke 2:52). Let Your light shine through me, in Jesus’ mighty name. Amen.”
Not even five minutes after the prayer, my phone rings. It’s another client, confirming new business—an answer to my prayers. At that moment, I realize the reason I had been feeling so downcast and distracted was because I was worried about future needs. Yet, Jesus gently reminds me, “How long do I have to be with you for you to know that the Father provides for those who believe in Him? (Matthew 6:25-33). Isn’t the same God who feeds the birds of the air and clothes the lilies of the field able to meet your every need?”
I pause, feeling humbled and grateful. Indeed, God is faithful to reward those who diligently seek Him (Hebrews 11:6). I was so focused on my worries that I forgot to trust in His provision. And here He is, showing me once again that He’s always working behind the scenes, making a way even when I can’t see it.
Prayer of Thanksgiving:
“Father, I thank You for this confirmed business. You are a faithful God, who hears and answers my prayers. Your Word tells me not to be anxious about anything, but to present my requests to You with thanksgiving (Philippians 4:6). I give You all the glory for opening doors that no man can shut (Revelation 3:8). Thank You for being my provider, my strength, and my ever-present help in time of need (Psalm 46:1). I praise You for this blessing, and I trust You for even greater things. In Jesus’ name, Amen.”
With this renewed confidence, I am reminded that God is always in control, and He is my source in all things.
