Monday Mornings and the Voices in My Head

Early Monday morning, I ran into a friend who, oddly enough, looked too calm for a Monday. Now, let’s be real—Monday mornings usually have two types of people: those dragging themselves into the week like reluctant warriors, and those pretending to have their lives together. He was neither. He was just calm.

Curious, I asked him where he was from. He threw the question right back at me, and with a little bit of pride (and exhaustion), I told him, “Church.” See, I had made a decision that morning—to start my day in the most peaceful place I could think of. Considering I have four energetic children, church was my only shot at silence before the madness began.

I then looked at my friend and said, “You must be lucky to have Monday as an off day.”

Without missing a beat, he replied, “It’s the choices we make.”

Ouch. That one hit differently. Choices. At that moment, I was relieved that I had chosen to go to church instead of sleeping in, but my mind immediately flashed back to all the times I had made choices that didn’t last long.

See, I used to make these big, bold spiritual commitments, and just when I was starting to feel holy, the voices in my head would start their nonsense.

• “Who are you trying to fool?”
• “Just because you go to church doesn’t make you a Christian.”
• *“Do you really think God hears *your voice?”**

And I would give in. I would stop. Stop waking up early for prayer. Stop reading the Word. Stop pursuing God because I let my doubts talk me out of it.

But not anymore.

Something changed when I committed to *consistently reading the Word—thank God for the *SGS program (which, by the way, should come with a warning label: “Side effects may include spiritual awakening, mind renewal, and an inability to stay the same.”).

I now understand what it means to renew my mind. It’s not just a fancy phrase from Romans 12:2; it’s the process of shutting up the lies in my head and replacing them with truth. It’s realizing that God actually does hear my voice, and—brace yourself—He likes it.

Am I perfect? Nope. Am I there yet? Not even close. But you know what? I love His voice. And every morning that I choose Him over my comfort, over my doubts, over my excuses—I know He smiles.

So, here’s my challenge to you: What choices are you making? Are you letting doubt rob you of growth? Are you waiting for your mind to be “perfectly renewed” before you move forward? Because news flash—it won’t be perfect, but God loves effort.

I don’t always get it right, but I’m showing up. And for now, that’s enough.